Tuesday, May 09, 2006

I am not sure of my ultimate goal- scale wise. I am thinking i'd like to get down to 150? I dont know for sure because i never even remember being there. So for me, that means my goal is to lose 150 pounds.

I will lose 150 pounds.

Knowing that makes this journey fun. I will lose weight and maintain my loss by following ww from now on. I've realized and accepted and embraced that, and although i still have small inklings to deviate from my plan, i havent. My first day OP was April 3rd. And i have been OP since.

I've had an epiphany. I just realized that i have the power to make my body look and perform any way that i choose. That is empowering, and i am no longer feeling restrained by this "diet" I am feeling energized about and in control of my future.

I am changing my life.

Other times i have done weight watchers i have been so hungry. This time i am not. That and that alone is what is feeding my "hunger" that i have always been trying to fill.

On April 3rd I ate to nourish my body. I ate to meet my caloric needs.

On April 3rd I read, talked, emailed, exercised, hugged my kids, kissed my husband, and loved myself to feed that "hunger".

And i will continue to do so.

The feeling that both of those decisions gave me is one i want to hold onto forever.

Jackie
SW 300.8
CW 284.2
GW 10% 270

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